I sat down today to give it my earnest best shot to write about a subject I care deeply about. The topic was about finding your authentic self and tying it back into what i’m looking for in my own journey.
Going for a walk today the whole concept seemed so clear to me but as I sat down to type nothing came out right. One paragraph would ramble, one would sound hacky and on and on until I just deleted everything I wrote.
It makes me understand why everyone does list posts because really those are just an outline of what you truly want to say or cover.
But digging in and trying to flesh out a concept that isn’t surface level or objective can be painstakingly difficult.
I know this frustrating feeling of hitting a dead end or being miserable with your work quite well. It’s exactly the way songwriting feels. They’re two peas in a pod but when it comes to writing songs i’ve been earnestly writing what I want to write and finding my voice since I was 15 where as most of my writing has been school or work obligations.
It feels like i’m somewhat starting from the bottom here and have a lot of work to do on my writing ability if it’s ever something I could take pride in.
I know writing will have plenty of it’s own highs and lows as that’s part of any creative process but damn if I don’t feel on the low end right now.
So let’s tack a big objective on the board for 2014 that looks something like this.
“Take writing seriously, work at it consistently and get some damn training”.